As I sat down to start this blog post, I heard it. The sound of a lawnmower. How damn ironic…since that’s what this post is about…kinda.
Let’s rewind to the summer of 2013. I got to travel quite a bit.
Then a few weeks later, I went to Chicago to shoot a wedding with Katie Destry.
The next day, I hopped on a plane for a work conference in Idaho… it was SO gorgeous out there!
After a week in Idaho, I flew back to Indy at midnight and shot a wedding the next day with Jessica Strickland…which was a huge deal for me and was a goal that I made for myself when I first started shooting weddings.
Then, I got the call Labor Day weekend. We were moving to Hawaii. Wait, what?! Yep, Ryan’s job was sending us to Hawaii to live for a few years. The next few months were a whirlwind. In September, I told my day job that I would be leaving in October. The next week, my boss (and the only other person in the HR department) left the company. And I lost my damn mind. Literally there were times that I couldn’t breathe and just wanted to cry. Never in my life have I been so stressed out. You know when you have so much to do and it just keeps piling up, and you don’t even know where to start? That was my life for about two months. Luckily, I have some amazing friends who helped me keep my sanity somewhat in tact.
And then in the midst of all of the craziness, four days at a photography conference in LA changed my life. The conference and experience deserve a separate blog post…although it is so hard to put into words how that week was life-changing.
On December 8th, I jumped on a plane and flew across the Pacific Ocean to my new home in Hawaii. Specifically, on the island of Molokai. And I have missed one hell of a midwest winter.
Now back to today…
Have you ever heard of misophonia? According to www.misophonia.com, it is defined as “a hypersensitivity to background sounds or visual stimuli that are generally ignored by other people.” And let me tell ya something…this shit is real. And I have it. For reals.
Here at our condo, we don’t have air conditioning… there are actually only a few places on the entire island that have air conditioning. So, the windows are open at all times. Well a few weeks ago, someone was mowing outside of our building. For a few solid hours, the hum of the lawnmower was literally all I could hear. *Enter misophonia and insanity inside my brain.* And I couldn’t shut the windows or lanai door to block out the noise, because there would be no air flow and it would be hot as a mo’ fo’ up in here. No matter how loud I turned up Pandora, I couldn’t block out the noise of the lawnmower. And forget turning on the TV to block out the noise. I kept looking out the window to see if I could tell how much longer the lawnmower would be going. It seemed like it was never going to end.
And then, it hit me. All of my friends back in Indy who are living underneath a winter of snow and ice and sub-zero temps and cabin fever… they would probably give anything to hear the sound of a lawnmower. Because to them, the sound of a lawnmower means that the snow and cold are gone, and grass is growing. Holy shit. Ever since that moment, anytime I hear a lawnmower, I am thankful for the opportunity to live on an island in the middle of the Pacific Ocean.
Now, my every day normal consists of palm trees, mountains, sand, sunshine, and the ocean (all photos in this post are from my instagram feed… you can follow along with all of my Hawaii adventures on instagram @cambrie_a).
Looking back, there were days that it seemed impossible…but I made it through September and October. And if I can make it through that, I can make it through anything.
Life is all about perspective and how you see things. How you choose to see things. There are so many things in this life that are out of our control. But the one thing that you have 100% control over is how you feel about things. Let the things that you have no control over unfold as they will…because you can’t.control.them.no.matter.how.hard.you.try. But you can control how you see things and how you feel about things. Choose happiness. Choose joy. Your sanity will thank you.